Kadang-kadang aku pilih utk jd hipokrit..
Lebih hipokrit...
Nak jaga hati sendiri...
Nak jaga perasaan kawn sendiri... Ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!
Penat bila hidup dlm lakonan...
tak boleh ke aku nak jadi diri sendiri...
nak keluar dari kepompong sendiri
nak cuba hidup dlm dunia nhe....
nak pijak, hentak bumi nhe...
Nak rasa kegembiraan, kepuasan..
Nak dapt pengalaman jatuh, terjunam tapi menang...
Dengan jujur,ihklas, tulus, rela dan redha....
Tapi bila?
LINKIN PARK: BE MY SELF
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I
Turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside
